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N A T A S H A

there's nothing wrong with my name.
If you think you know me, read my blog and think again.
I'm imperfect and I'm Lovin' It.
I'm the only witness and the only person who can judge my life.
the crazy idiot who is oh-so spastic,
shit crazy about stitch
scolding me FAT doesnt make you any SLIM-ER
scolding me STUPID doesnt make you way SMARTER
BACKSTBBING me doesnt make you a CHAMPION
and calling me BLACK doesnt make you look any FAIRER[:

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January - 21: Sakinah, 22: Tian De, 25: Renuka,

February - 03: Simlambarasan, 04: Danshikah Viva, 22: Ammu Carolin, 26: Deva Kumaran

March - No one

April - 01: Ummu, 09: Matthew, 22: Nabilah

May - 02: Rajan Mama, 06: Hannah, 07: Shamini Melanie Natasha Viva, 07: Floris, 13: Raifana, 14: Fazree, 16: Shahrizal, 19: Rahul, 22: Margret (grandma), 23: Timothy Marc Surain Viva, 26: Vivekananda (Daddy)

June - 14: Zahirah, 16: Azirah, 18: Saras, 23: Thilaga Atthai

July - 3: Rani Atthai, 14: Velu Mama, 18: Pushpalatha Viva(Mommy), 21: Kalu, 21: Lakesh, 21: Hafiz

August - 07: Aqilah

September - 4: Aishah 5: Dashini Kashmalene 18: Uma

October - 1: Taarshini

November - forget

December - 19: Rovina 19: Eason Navin 24: Angela 26: Shalini Damaris

Sorry guys for not updating ur birthdays.. i gotta go back home and check it out.. i wrote them in my diary and soon to be updated.. I saw ur birthdays in my diary but i didn't bring the book to my aunt hse.. so now seriously soon to be updated!!! He3..ily guys!!!
title: plspls
date: Tuesday, March 31, 2009
time:6:36 PM
I m fucking bored!!!! Be my listening ear can??!!


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title: The policeman hot sia..
date: Thursday, March 26, 2009
time:3:36 PM
Hello Blog how are u?
I wanna tell you something.. Listen ok..

You know that my brother got probehtion(Idk how to spell). Ya so he cnt go out after 10pm.. On Tuesday He come back home around 9.40, thn my mom bought a new key pad and I lock to gate with that new KP, so that my bro wont go out of the house.. Thn he told my mom that he is going out again at 11pm, thn my mommy said cnnt go out.. Y u wanna go.. Thn they were arguing.. Thn my mom told him wake her up whn he wants to go.. Bcoz as a mother she will confirm be worried if the son is not bck at home right.. So ya, thn my mom told him to wake her up, thn he ask y.. Thn she said bcoz i need to unlock the door.. Thn my bro ask what door..

Thn she just went inside her room. Thn he said idiot sia.. I got angry man, like how dare you scold my mother.. You fucking asshole!!! Thn he came knocking the room door around 11.10pm saying that he is not going down. And asks a cigarrette from my mom. My mom gave him. 20 mins later he come knocking the door again and saying that he wants to go out give him the key.. My mother refuse to give the house key.. Thn she said you cnt go out.. You want me to call the police isit? If they say that I can let you go out, i will..

Bcoz if you're in the situation right, u feel like my bro is in a mood to hit you.. So b4 anything happens right, my mom called the police.. So she called thn the police, thy came 15 mins later.. I told to myself, wah got police ah.. If got any handsome guy cn see sia.. In my mind was chinese, mly and Indian..

I saw one chinese guy.. Thn I thought oh maybe next one oso chinese old fellow.. But in the end right it was a mly hot and handsome guy sia.. Wah, damn hot sia..

Thn when the police tok right my bro lying on the bed and toking to them.. So rude man he.. Thn my mom pass her IC to me to pass to the mly guy.. Thn i give him..

Thn after whn he leave the house, wah he tok to my mom.. I look at him only sia.. Thn he oso got look. Thn i smile and nod my head.. But its ok.. But seriously he is freaking hot..

NVM, actually the purpose of posting this entry is of the police to tell u how hot is he..


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date: Sunday, March 22, 2009
time:5:34 PM
Actually right, as i doing my archives right,
i lost my cbox.. And thn i went to cobx.ws to get my code.
And i really couldn't.. Then i went to publish or something and i got the thing lar.. Ah, the code for my cbox.. Hehehe..

Hey and i have myspace.. Add me.. www.myspace.com/natashahatestolove
and in myspace.. I added FTSK the group and individual.. But im not sure if its corect the real profile.. But it looks like it.. So im not sure..

Wanna find fault perposely huh!!!
Its ok.. I think its not worth it fighting with you..
The relationship between me and you is nothing BIATCH!!!!

See my brain suddenly change chapter one leh.. But really,
YOU'RE NOT WORTH IT BIATCH!!!


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title: Creating the blog archive
date: Friday, March 20, 2009
time:8:41 PM
I recently found out that I do not have archive.. Ohmy, its really headcracking.. Finding a blogskin which have got blog archive and adding into my now blog skin.. So firstly i took one blogskin, the font all like nonsense.. Then the archive was damn style ah.. Its like when u click a thing rolling open out, thn u click which of the archive u wanna go.. Here is the exact thing I was talking about...



Ya so the thing is this.. Then when i apply the archive code to my current skin right, the archive dosen't wanna work properly.. Then i take another blog skin and took the archive.. And now my blog is done with archive!! Yeah, there's achive..


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date: Thursday, March 19, 2009
time:8:34 PM


I when through my thumbdrive 'deleted pictures'.. So i wanted to see the pictures.. And then I saw my before photos.. Then I was so angry with myself.. Cause I wasn't as fat as now.. I want to be that and lose somemore weight.. My mom said that my back looks abit small. So its a good sign.. Must lose weight more.. Stop eating rice leh natasha.. JUST FOR ONCE AR.. LISTEN TO YOUR MOMMY!!! PLEASE.. And ya i wanna upload these pictures... And look at me now.. I suck man!!!











See see get it what i mean.. I gotta lose my weight..!!!


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date: Tuesday, March 17, 2009
time:8:59 PM
erm im so bored.. Very lazy to write what happen today..
Nvm, i'll write..

So group after group have got to go out to Mr. Nick and Mr. Boi to tell their group reflection about their group's short film.. So Sean group went first, then Saras's, then Azirah and then it was my group's turn..

So i had no mood.. Bcoz, for the whole last two days of shoot, Yang Jing keep on telling me that I didn't do anywork.. I as a art director i did my job.. Actually there's not many work to do as the actors are wearing their own clothes.. So I even helped out the others.. If she was telling it play2 for 1 or 2 times, its understandable.. But she is keep on telling me!!! It's irritating and hurtful man!!

So I really didn't have any mood to laugh or talk to my group members, but I can tok to my other friends.. Hahaha.. Then Serene ask me to write the reflection.. I say cannot.. Why ever should I write that f-ing thing!!! Then Serene ask me if I got anything to say, then I said no.. So Yang Jing ask me to write.. Again as usual I said CANNOT!!! And then Serene was telling something in chinese.. Hello, I AM A INDIAN!! FOR GOD SAKE SPEAK ENGLISH, EVEN IF YOUR ENGLISH IS NOT GOOD, TRY TOO SPEAK, YOU CAN IMPROVE... I AM NOT THAT STUPID WHEN YOU SPEAK BROKEN ENGLISH THAT I CAN'T UNDERSTAND!!!!

Ya, that happened before going to our teachers.. So when we went to our teachers, Mr.Boi laughed.. Haha, and then before I even wanna say that they always speak chinese, Mr.Nick ask 'Did they all speak chinese', Thn i said yes.. Then Yang Jing say that Yang Jing will tell serene in chi thn serene translate... So, Mr.Nick ask who is the producer.. Mr.Nick looked at me as he ask.. My face look like producer mah.. Haha, thn serene say that she is the one.. Then Mr.Nick ask what part am I.. Then I say Art Director.. Then he ask me how was it.. So i told idk in a disappointed way mutely shaking my shoulders.. So he ask how got any problem.. I kept quiet.. Then he say that I look unhappy. Then Yang Jing say, Mr.Nick I will tell you..

Then she thought that I was angry with her bcoz of the facebook.. In the facebook she say that she got to thank Swee Kiat for the hardwork.. Then I play2 say that, "Wah, tell Swee Kiat thank you then nvr tell me." Then she said that truthlly she got to tell Swee Kiat thank you bcoz he was hardworking and serious and what la.. She also told that Mr.Boi ask to tell who's the bad influence in the group.. I suspected that she will tell me.. Coz for the two days she haf been telling me that i am not doing my job.. So i said, you wanna tell my name oso can.. You can put the blame on me.. I dont give a fuck about it.. That's what i tell her.. Then she say she going to firstly open up Ezra's name.. Then i say whatever you want to do you do.. Dnt reply me.. Byebye.. Coz I irritaed with her ready.. Then she said Swee Kiat more hard working then me right? Then I say, I don't know lah, dont ask me.. Go and ask yourself la.. Byebye.. Don't reply.. I very busy.. Actually that time i playing game.. Wah I damn rabak(worst) sia.. Ya lar wat you expect!!! Angry ready talk nicely ah..

Ya so thats the whole facebook thing.. So she thought that I was angry with that.. So she told the teachers that.. I interrupted their conversation to tell the truth of what is the cause of my frustration and anger towards her.. So I tell that she told me that I nvr even do my job, its like what the hell ah.. I even got help my other crew members.. So as I was telling I cry ready sia.. Then Mr.Nick didn't hear properly.. So he ask to tell again.. Then I really cannot.. Coz i'll cry even more.. Then Mr.Boi say that you cry bcoz you're concern about your work.. Are you concern or not? He asked me.. Then I shook my head saying yes.. Then Mr.Nick told me that I take thing too personal.. So he tell me not to take things too personal.. And just speak out.. If not your anger will be inside and it's not good for your health.. So i say ok mutely, so that means i shake my head lah..

And they were talking ah.. I can't hear cause whenever I am sad crying, I really can't hear anything.. Then I was crying, crying and crying without sound.. Its like my face sadly tears rolling down my cheeks.. And then at a point of time i told myself, Natasha its time to stop crying and listen to teacher what are they telling.. So ya I stopped and listen to them.. And Mr.Nick told me that Mr.Boi use to hate Mr.Nick, because he looks so fierce.. And Mr.Nick say that even his blur face looks like he is fierce.. So can't really blame him.. Then he said that Mr.Boi thought him how to smile be cool.. And then he show twist.. Maybe he is refering to peace.. Ya, I tried to laugh abit.. I did.. At the end, Yang Jing reach out her hand to me telling me that ' friends'.. And I was like 'ok friends :%' Then i said ok friends, but my hand action was like dont know.. Whenever you say donnoe, how will your hand be.. Ya exactly.. Then Mr.Boi look then i shake hands with her.. But i was like huh?, friends.. Why, we are not enermy.. So I didn't get that point.. Ya but whatever its over..

Then I felt ok la.. After that when to Saras sat with her.. And Al-Hafiz and Irah compite hand wrestling with other people.. Hahaha, it was damn funny/fun.. Hhahah.. But this class can't be as good as my secondary school.. My secondary school class rules man.. They are the best!!!!


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date: Monday, March 16, 2009
time:5:23 PM
Oh ya, i forgot..
I watch slumdog millionaire..
It's worth my money,
actually i watch it for free..
Cause my mom's friend bouht the dvd..
Ya, the rating is 4/5..
It's not 5/5, or, 3/5..
3/5 means like okok only..
So it's not okok, but it's a well
done job by the director..
Don't know what's his name..
And OMG!!!
Dave Patel, no comments!!!
He is like damn f-ing hot!!!
Wah!!!! Hot like ass man..
But no one is hotter than ........

Haahhaha.. Guess lor who!!!
HINT: i LOVE caucasian guys!!!!!


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date: Saturday, March 14, 2009
time:2:31 PM
Ok yesterday met up with my vp1 group at woodlands..


Director: Yang Jing
Producer: Serene
Cameraman: Swee Kiat
Gaffer: Ezra
Soundman: Zi Xin
Art Director: Natasha


First we all went to Yang Jing house to see if its possible to add the red head in the room.. And see all the settings in her house.. All was ok, but the rooms were too small.. Then if we put the red head right, the actors will burn up.. So Ezra volunteered his house.. So we went there.. We took bus number 901 from the interchange.. Then when I step into the house OHMY!!! I smelled urine smell.. So I thought that I was the onky one smelling that.. But in the end, we Zi xin and i couldnt take the smell, we come out of the house.. The I tell her, hey the house smelly ah.. Then she was like ya.. Then we all like OHMY!!! Somemore the room all messy he ask us to clean together.. I was like FUCK OFF MAN.. I didn't tell him.. I was thinking to myself.. Then all the girls was like NOWAY!!! Then poor Swee Kiat help him to clear.. Hahaha, OHMY, for god sake im not even going to touch his house things.. I know its bad, but i can't help myself.. I really cannot.. Actually im not suppose to tell anyone.. But im updating this in my blog cause i need to tell someone, so im telling my blog.. Its my bestfriend/closefriend/boyfriend!!! Its all in one.. So please whoever read it from my class, please dont neglet him.. He is a human being.. And OHMY, the worst thing is that he say i am the jia(sister), then i told him that i am your friend/classmate, i dont play the jiajia(sister) game all.. So please I dont like it!!! EEWWWW, i hate ppl whn they are not related to me calling me sister.. EEWWW, its a nightmare!!!

So today going to rehearsal with all the actors for the short film... Lets see today we do wat!!! And there's mosquitoes in his house, so all of ur dicided to wear everything long.. So im wearing track pants.. Hahahha.. I think i need to bring my jacket.. BNut its too hot!! ITS GETTING HOT IN HERE, SO TAKE OFF ALL YOUR CLOTHES.. By nelly.. Hahahahha..

GOOD LUCK NATASHA


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date: Sunday, March 08, 2009
time:2:39 PM
Happy Women's Day!!
Women we rock.
Don't cry over a man,
let the man cry for you.


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time:2:13 PM


A Millie edited lyrics on Obama


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date: Saturday, March 07, 2009
time:2:41 PM
Yesterday whn out with Razanah.. And we were camwhoring.. Had aalot of fun.. Hahahha.. The pictures we took collaged together.. There are more, to be updated soon..




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title: I think I was depressed b4!!!
date: Friday, March 06, 2009
time:8:31 PM
Today I had LLA, Lifeskill. Then tcher was talking about stress and depression. When tcher was talking bout them, I listen'd.. Then thr was a part whr tcher was talking bout depression and when/what depression comes/is. So tcher say tt when you have depression you will think tt u are usless, hopeless and thr's no meaning in living.. So as tcher was telling tt, my mood suddenly whn down.. I didn't smile, tok, laugh and i wanted to cry.

Coz, thr was a time not long ago, last year nov/dec, i thought tt me living, thrs no point. Coz im fat, noone likes me.. What I want to be in future, i can't be. My ambition to be sucessful, i gotta be thin, healthy, hot, good looking, have nice body and have nice abs.. I see myself and i think tt wats th point in living!! U're fat, u won't go any further in life.. And after thinking tt only i was so sad and I didn't talk to you all properly..

And one thing about me, you gimme attitude, i give u back.. You don't like me, FUCK OFF!!! I hate whn f-ppl gimme their f-attitude sia.. Like asshole!!! So wat if i run, tell ppl hello, laugh or what-so-ever sh!t I do.. Is tt bothering you!! FUCKING ASSHOLE!!!!

BUT I GOTTA BE STRONG, I LOVE THE WAY I AM AND I LOOK!!!


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date: Thursday, March 05, 2009
time:8:59 PM
Hello everyone,

I am so stressed about my school work. I can't take good pictures, can't do my Computer Graphics and my video, i oso dnt knw whn will my group finish doing th paper work.. And my group script got approved.. YEAH!!! K, so now i decided that whatever tcher teaches me, I am gonna listen. There's no time for admiring guys(john). Hahahah.

And I find it weird ah, I think john knows tt i like him sia. Cause the way he reacts to me like sh!t man. I think someone tell. Wah, i was like, Ok, dnt like him.. Bcoz he is th only british mix malay... As i love caucasian guys, so ya.. Thn by th time i start not to like him, he didn't tok to me.. Heart breaking sia.. I told Raz just to remind me whenever I give comments to guys.. She will stop me from doing that!!! I love her..

I feel that i m nomore close with anyone, u knw y.. Coz of school work.. Stress, tight schedule on both side, cnnt go home together cause need to do project.. Today whn home alone.. Thn i slept in th train.. I sleep like nonsense eh.. My head move like sh!tty nonsense.. Thn at dover i woke up.. Luckily, thn I alighted at jurong.. I was like sleepy man.. Thn cm home ate bread with so called nutella and chicken nuggets...

Ouh ya!!! Today i tried JAPANESE FOOD!!!! EEWWW, IHATEITLOTS!!!! I hate it.. Thr was a small bowl of rice, a small bowl of soup and a medium plate of teriyaki sauce chicken.. I loved the chicken, but i didn't like th rice and th soup.. I ate lesser than half of th rice and th chicken.. Than i wasted $3.50.. Nxt time im not gonna buy JAPANESE FOOD man!!! Except for SUSHI.. But i m going to try laksa, yong tau fu.. Must try seah, if not eat the same thing all over again.. Sian ah.. But ok ah, i risk my taste buds and my money on trying th JAPANESE FOOD!!! I dnt knw hw Kalu and Bob eat sia.. I knw ah by their mouth, But th taste.. Argh, everyone got different taste!!!


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title: Yeah, edited!!!
date: Wednesday, March 04, 2009
time:9:21 PM
Yes ah, I edited my blog skin!!
So damn nice sia!!


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date: Sunday, March 01, 2009
time:4:25 PM


I cried!! OHMY!!! Its like so damn touching man!!
So to all girls, we all are beatiful.
And guys, you're the man.
So to those who critisize ppl, please think twice..
Dnt hurt others!!
Their human too.
Please watch it!!!


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